So I went to court today and was very hopeful that I was getting out. But it is apparent that I am not getting released on my misdemeanors but it also came as a surprise that I was even going to court at all. I am however aware of court for my felonies, but not too sure what my felony is for, but am aware that it is either on the 21st or 23rd. I tried to ask my public defender when my next court date was but apparently he had no idea. So I don’t really want to change public defenders or judge but if they don’t start doing something soon I’m going to start flipping out. It was kinda funny that when when Cathy walked by and said, “are you OK? you look like you’re going to flip out.”¬† Well I’m not planing on flipping out so thank you god for god plans that no matter how good even my thoughts¬† are at this point the world and everything around me tells that all these women are not at all who I want to be part of my life because I already know that they want the best for me and are more selfish than I am and have no problem making me selfish as well. Let’s hope that none of us steps on each others toes. Why is it that I resort to blaming everyone else rather than just start conflicts and get over it. Wah! I hate my thoughts and their lack of answers and more judgement. I already know because I didn’t share someone’s going to try and get this piece of paper and tell someone what my conflicts are. Why the hell do I try to be honest with myself? It’s not that I don’t like any of these ladies…