You broke my heart Tony. I know I have made mistakes. I live with the regret every day. But when you told me you were distancing yourself from me, because of the things I have done, and that you cannot forgive me, it just killed me. But that is your right.

I cannot force you to want to have anything to do with me. You say it’s just me you are this way with, but that is not so. You go weeks without even checking on your Nana. What happened to my son who was so loving and caring? The little boy who held his mom’s hand while we walked in the store or down the sidewalk.

I lost you long before I ever came to jail. I thought spoiling you and giving you freedom would make up for the past. But it just made it worse. Instead I turned you into a cold individual who shuts everyone out. I love you. Always have, always will. You are the true love of my life.


~Chicken Big