I am learning what not to say aloud. It’s better to shut up. Confrontation can escalate. Also learning w/o entourage people have no backbone. Also knowing I don’t want to be a returning prisoner. I miss my husband 1 – children 2 – grandbaby 3 –  dog 4 – my life 5. I also did not know how much I held our household together. They are not doing well w/o me. Being home they depend on me a whole lot more than known.