The impossibly painful atmosphere that surrounds me is every once & a great while ever so briefly absent from my heart but only when that temporary Void is filled by an encounter with a Loved one. I’m Not talking about people that you are forced to be around & every one of the them NOT truly understanding your depth & Love you have deep down in your soul. The encounters I speak of have to do with the ones I Love- The ones that Love Me as well & know me deep & fully to my soul. I miss my family so Much-I’m so sad & distraught lately-Inter Blues really settling in-Trying to keep at Bay-God Willing