My ex husband…Not even 19 yet with a 2 ½ year old sweet little boy the apple of my eye. Getting married to a young man stationed at Fort Wainwright a young man that my Gram’s loved & adored a young man that claimed my 2 ½ year old as his own. A young man that in 4 years & 11 month’s I would break his heart, because I just couldn’t be the perfect Army wife that he wanted & needed as he wanted to be and accomplished being an excellent career soldier. He had always been an excellent father to our 3 younger kids Jessica & the twins Marcus & Alexis. He had always been a loving husband, if only damnit if only I could have not been so selfish & self centered how different my life woulda been how different my kids life woulda been. No drugs for me or my son, no alcoholism for either of us either!! I coulda had it all WITH my family had I not been so selfish. I have to believe that God has a plan for me I know that even as selfish as I once was that God still loves me!
- Poohbear ‘79