It’s hard to stay upbeat during the holidays when being incarcerated. Not only because I’m not capable of being with my family and friends, but having my fiancé incarcerated as well. I try to act as if I’m strong and not wanting him to see different. If I’m sad, it will make him sad. But to pretend that not being able to celebrate the holidays together doesn’t bother me is kind of impossible.

It’s not about gifts. It’s not about money. It’s about missing out on memories. It’s about missing out on love. And laughter.

Another year wasted. New Year’s resolution to never waste another year again.