I do not want to be where I’m at. I feel like my mood, my karmic energies, the sun, the moon, the stars, are all playing my life and I have no control of it. I’ve been patient, kind, understanding, passive. I’ve prayed, meditated and I’ve had alone time to think about all of it. I cannot help but feel even the wrong breath could send what happens next teetering towards destruction.
I’ve grown impatient.