Being locked up. Seeing that everyone was used to having me around. All the time being called upon. Always moving. Now, they are realizing how much they relied on me. Needed me around. I guess it’s not nice to be on time out. Sadly, to say this is first time in a long time I am straight sober. Time to reflect and think. Make plans. It’s time I take time for myself for once. I ran myself into the ground. Once that happened, they turned their backs on me when I needed them the most. Felt useless. Worthless. No longer needed. Felt like a screw up. Life was spiraling out of control. I was reckless. Careless. Now, I am putting broken pieces together. Dusting off. Getting up. Ready to try again. Maybe the results will be different this time.
June 5, 2023