Today I’m very sad. My heart hurts. Every time I get close to someone, they get taken from me. I love Christmas but the past few years I’ve hated it. I’ve lost everyone I have ever loved. I have realized my own mother will just keep lying to me. I am alone.

I’ve realized I’ll be looking at these walls for many years for something I didn’t even do. I did it for someone I thought loved me for me, not for what I could do or get. But once again, I was wrong.

My heart is torn into a million pieces. I just want it to stop, to stop hurting. To stop being in pain. I need the headache to just go away. I need to stop.

Stop feeling.

Stop thinking.

Stop hurting.

Stop life itself.

I just want to feel safe, secure, satisfied and stable. Is this the place for me?

If it is, then all I want is to say goodbye.


~Krazy Krissy